It's All About Me

I have come to the realization that although I am older and a nana, I am still capable of getting my feelings hurt by the actions of friends.  I am so irritated and disappointed in myself that I have allowed this to happen.

It is my belief that we all make choices.  And obviously I have made a choice to be hurt over what I consider being ignored by some of our acquaintances.  Actually I am marveling that I can advise others on much more serious issues, then allow something so silly to get under my own skin. 

If I step back and look at this, guess what I see?  Two weeks on a ship.  Two weeks of a busy and different schedule.  Two weeks with no quiet time.  That would be no time of being alone, no time for reflection, prayer, devotionals, etc.  It would be two weeks of only speaking to God when I remembered, which was not as often as usually occurs in my daily life. I ask your forgiveness, Lord, as I have others who also depend on me for my prayers.  I really took a vacation from You, too!

With this new found realization that I am just human, still with the same old faults that I probably harbored growing up when rejected by friends, I am on the same path as I've always been.  I wonder that God doesn't give up on me.  But then I know that even when I am hurt and perceive myself to be rejected by others (who also have their own baggage), there is God.  Always God is there for me.  And really He is the one that matters.

So I'm going to go take a shower (I've already been caught in my pajamas by the man who is going to brick our new carriage lights at the end of the drive) and put on my Big Girl panties.  It's time that I did some growing up!

May God's peace be with you this day.